I don’t blame people for staying away. I’m impossible. If someone talks with me, asks me how I’m doing, I’m angry. What an awful question, how do they think I’m doing? But if they don’t say anything, I’m angry too. Don’t they know how overwhelming this is, and that I need support?
I’ve made it impossible for anyone to win.
And so I’m angry at myself too, for setting up this ridiculous situation.